On a spiritual note, just had a simple thought for all of you out there who are trying to connect with the spirit of God. Sometimes, I think it’s good to remind ourselves that we humans. It’s really bothered me lately how some many people, including me pretend that we’re put together. That we don’t need anything. I’m one of the those people who doesn’t like to air my problems to people. This has actually hurt me, not helped! I’ve been going through a pretty dry time spiritually and I know I”m far from the only one, but for some reason, I feel God in circumstances. Sometimes mine, but most of the time, it’s others circumstances. EVERY time I drive by or see a homeless person. Not only does my heart break for them, but I can’t help but mentally try to understand their life story. It’s like my life goes on pause. Everything stops. I’m fixated on this one person. It’s like I feel what God feels. Yet, the one major difference is I rarely act on it. I think what everyone probably thinks. If I give them money, they’ll just use it for alcohol, drugs or something else not productive. And who knows, maybe they will. Where I’m going with this, is that when I’m in my room, car or somewhere else trying to connect with God, there are really rich times and very dry times, but there’s something about being in a circumstance where you feel Gods heart. There’s something incredibly spell binding about this emotion called “feeling”. I have this philosophy when I edit videos. Even though I want to create quality videos, I always want to take it a step farther. I want people to FEEL something when they watch a video I do. Let me clarify, I’ve had several chances to watch people watch a video I’ve done and see them cry, smile or make a decision to do something. To me, this is the win. I think there’s something to be said about making conscious decisions to do something, but I think there is something so uniquely powerful abouting people feeling something. I believe God wants us to feel what he feels. I love the presence of God. Honestly, I crave the peace and love I feel when I worship, but I can’t get away how much I feel God in circumstances that I believe rip his heart. Orphans, poverty, broken people. I’ve got so far to go in having the kind of relationship with God that I want, but I’m so thankful for emotions. Next time you see someone on the street or however, let that feeling of uneasiness grow in you. I hope it grows in me. Let’s be moved to action by a decision, but let’s love out of the absolute feeling like there is something eternally wrong with this situation that God is breaking my heart to change.
Daily Archives: October 1st, 2008
So, I promised all of you lovely people an update on what’s going on with me lately. Well, here’s the latest. After 3+ amazing years of serving with the incredible staff team of New Life Church in conway, arkansas, Dee and I decided to step down. I’ve been wanting to go back to school for quite some time, but have never really had the time to do it so hopefully, in the beginning of the year, I’ll be going back to school for graphic design and video. I’m also going to continue working to grow my media company Chrispauldesign.com. At this point, dee and I are planning to remain in arkansas. We’re praying about what God would have us do at this point, but I’ll also say that we’re looking forward to continuing to attending NLC. We love NLC and the staff and would have a hard time leaving. We’ve made life long friendships here and we love pastor rick and NLC. It’s such an incredible church! I know several people have heard that we might be leaving so hopefully, this blog puts some of that to rest. If at some point, we do decide to move, I’ll let everyone know for sure.
Ok, so, here’s the latest. I’m in the springs right now doing a video shoot with an author Erin Healy and Ted Dekker. Should be fun! I’ll try to post some pics soon. I’m thinking about making a small little behind the scenes video if I can sneak it in. We’ll see…. Once I get home, I have to edit like a mad man because we have to turn this video in by October 10th. Hopefully I can post it on youtube once it’s done. It’s for a book called “KISS”. Look for it if you get the chance. It sounds like a good book.
Beyond that, dee and I now have a wii and are really enjoying playing it. We’re enjoying the time together over the next few weeks. We’re going to take a trip in the middle of the month to hang with some friends (Actually the guy who I’m shooting with in the springs) Kevin Kaiser for a few days. Dee’s pretty close with his wife holly and I’ve been friends with kevin for several years. Should be alot of fun!
Ok, that’s what’s new with me for now. For those of you reading this, shoot me a comment so I can know who actually looks at this and let me know what’s up.
